I was looking through some old pictures the other day and it suddenly hit me just how bad E2′s eczema used to be and how dramatically it has improved. It’s one of those things that’s so gradual that you hardly notice it happening, but the change has been quite incredible. This time six months ago, the skin on her cheeks was so delicate and raw that the slightest touch would tear it open. Every morning, when I lifted her out of bed, there’s be great bloodstains all over the sheets where she’d torn her face just by turning in the night. And her skin used to hurt and itch her terribly — I had to keep her nails clipped down so short in order to keep her from scratching her face to shreds.
But these days, her eczema is almost completely gone (touch wood). Her skin is strong and healthy, and she’s a much happier girl. When I look back through the pictures, it is quite obvious that the transformation began to occur during the time right after her allergies were diagnosed and I began to eliminate them from my diet. It just kills me to realise what a huge impact they were having on her little body — how much her system was having to cope with at such a tender age — and that I, in my ignorance, was actually causing it all to happen to her through what I was eating and then passing onto her in my milk. For a mother, it is a very difficult thing to know that you caused your baby harm and pain like that, no matter how unintended.
Especially when I consider that the reaction and pain she was experiencing on her face was probably nothing compared to what her insides were going through. Oh, my poor, poor baby! It is no wonder that her first year was so very difficult.