Just a Little Too Honest

My daughters are only trying to express their perfectly natural feelings, and I do understand what they are trying to say.  E1 wants me to stop talking so she can say something, or show me something.  E2 wants a moment of privacy as she finally complies with an initially resisted request.  I understand these desires.  [...]

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Me, Again

It started with a knitting group on Friday night — a chance to get away for a couple of hours, to sit amongst adults, with busy hands and lively chatter, and I thoroughly enjoyed it.  I came home fresh and energised.
And though I would be up later that night three times with one child and [...]

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Contemplating Migration

For reasons that I do not feel compelled to share, I found myself standing topless in front of a full length mirror at 1.30am last night, observing what the ravages of pregnancy and four years of breastfeeding have left behind.  I was expecting to see the layer of pudgy fat around my middle, the unfortunate [...]

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Something I Miss, Something I Love

Something I Miss
I miss living in the countryside — the real, working, farming, smelly countryside.  Isolated here in a vast wasteland of suburbia — surrounded by everything I could ever want and wanting none of it — I yearn to wake up to the sharp smell of cowshit on the fields, the sound of goats [...]

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Late Shift

Out tonight with my mothers’ group, I came home at 10pm and opened the door slowly… slowly… in the hopes that perhaps the girls would be sleeping — and knowing full well that M would be asleep on the couch, either way.
He was, but they weren’t.  As soon as I stepped through the door, I [...]

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Must Let Go

I panic.
I must sort the laundry.  I must pay the bills.  I must do the taxes.  I must look up how to renew my driver’s license.  I must figure out a way to get us home.  I must balance my chequebook.  I must empty the dishwasher.  I must get to the post office.  I must [...]

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Because I Know You’re Dying to Know

It’s my birthday next month and I was putting together my wishlist for my mum and sister (my sister, especially, always really wants us to do wishlists to for her).  Since reading a blog is really all about voyeurism, I thought you might enjoy a look-see…
In no particular order, except for the first one which [...]

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Whereas…

In truth, it probably has nothing to do with here or there, owning or renting, working or staying home, career or not…  It probably has nothing to do with any of those external things, and everything to do with something inside me.  The problem is in me, and the solution is in me.  But I [...]

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Future Overwhelmed

The urge to go home is so strong it’s overwhelming. It rises from my gut like nausea, and pulls at my consciousness.  But we don’t have anything there now. We’d be starting over completely from scratch.  We’d have to buy a car and a fridge and a bed and a hoover and [...]

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Does Anyone Smell Smoke?

I caught the second and third episodes of Mistresses on BBCAmerica last night.  Adam Rayner nailed smoldering to the floor, and he’s been doing my head in ever since.
Adam, if you’re reading this, call me.  No, seriously — I’ll make it worth your while.  Call me.

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